Inner child

Over the past two years, I’ve come to understand just how much my inner child wounds have shaped both my relationships and my character. The insecurity and self-doubt I’ve carried stemmed from childhood trauma, which led me to constantly seek approval from others and avoid being alone. In trying to please everyone, I lost sight of who I truly was, and despite all my efforts, I realized none of it was making me happy.

Before I had my daughter, I promised myself I wouldn’t follow in my parents' footsteps. I swore my child would never grow up in a broken family. But life doesn’t always go as planned, and despite my best intentions, I went through a divorce. Afterward, I started spending more time out, neglecting my daughter in the process. It wasn’t until last December, when I noticed her insecurities, that I began to reflect on myself and how I was showing up as a mother.

Since then, I’ve made it a priority to spend time with her, putting her to bed at least six days a week. I know the divorce has affected her, but I’m doing everything in my power to prevent further childhood trauma. Now, I truly enjoy my time alone and the moments I share with my daughter. I’ve also found a deep connection to yoga and meditation, both of which have been essential in healing my inner child.

This healing journey has allowed me to rediscover myself and, most importantly, love who I am. I’m no longer the person who seeks to please others at the expense of my own happiness. Instead, I’m becoming the person I was always meant to be—strong, loving, and true to myself.

You’re going to realize it one day — that happiness was never about your job, or your degree, or being in a relationship. Happiness was never about following in the footsteps of all of those who came before you; it was never about being like the others. One day, you’re going to see it — that happiness was always about the discovery, the hope, the listening to your heart and following it wherever it chose to go. Happiness was always about being kinder to yourself, it was always about embracing the person you were becoming. One day, you will understand that happiness was always about learning how to live with yourself, that happiness was never in the hands of other people. It was always about you. It was always about you.

So here’s what I promised Lovella—a mum and baby (BFF) trip. My inner child, little Amy, will be her BFF for the trip, and she’ll get to pat her BFF to sleep instead of mummy making her sleep. 😝 I’m putting work and personal time aside for the next few weeks, just for little Amy and baby, with the sun, stars, sea, and all the beauty of nature. 🌞✨🌊🌳🌧️👩‍👧‍